Just a few years ago, Jason Smith was lying in his bathtub, the blood slowly draining from his slit wrists. Now he is here to tell us how he reached the point of suicide after his long, dark descent into prescription opiate abuse. The Bitter Taste Dying is a story of resurrection told by an author who has literally come back from the black grip of death.
Today’s junkies are not just on the street corner anymore. Big Pharma are the suppliers, and doctors are the pushers, cultivating (perhaps inadvertently, but that’s debatable) a massive population of addicts from all demographics.
After a severe car accident, Smith has back surgery and is given a perpetual menu of painkillers and muscle relaxers by his physicians. It doesn’t take long for the high schooler to realize that by taking more than the recommended dosage, he could obtain the warm, euphoric mental and physical comfort only opiates can bring. But all too soon he also discovers the pangs of withdrawal whenever his medication runs out.
If anyone has difficulty understanding what an addict feels like, Smith describes it with painful accuracy.
“You know that feeling of having your head held under water, the last of your oxygen depleted, where very fiber of your being screams at you to get to the surface for more air? That’s the feeling of needing more drugs…”
As Smith grows into a man, his addiction grows to mammoth proportions and he must go through heroic efforts to keep himself in pills and Fentanyl patches. Smith tells the story in an approachable, conversational tone that may have you laughing out loud at some parts. As horrendous as it is watching how far he would go and how morally low he would sink to get more drugs, it’s difficult not to marvel at his ingenuity and boldness.
At the same time, Smith writes with tender honesty and cutting unabashedness that is rare in any writer, much less any human being. The reader immediately feels very close to him, making his shocking confessions feel like blows.
The Bitter Taste of Dying is an important book that underscores the urgency with which society has to address the prescription drug abuse epidemic. It allows us to watch with uncomfortable closeness how easy it is to develop an addiction to pain medication and how quickly and mercilessly it can devour one’s entire life.
From aspiring football star to international criminal, Smith shows us step by step how opiate addiction can happen to anyone you know, and very likely destroy them. Most importantly, The Bitter Taste of Dying reveals the light at the end of the tunnel–even the most hopeless addict can make it out alive.
Jonathan Alter, former Senior Editor Newsweek, MSNBC, et. al. says, “This memoir grabs you by the throat on the first page and doesn’t let go until you’re done, in one sitting–gasping for breath because you know, finally, what it’s like to be a drug addict without having been one yourself.”
NY Times bestselling author Jerry Stahl of Permanent Midnight and OG Dad says, “Jason is a great writer who’s clearly done the life-destroying research that I can relate to. This is the voice of a new generation of drug addicts.”
Bob Levy, Executive Producer of Vampire Diaries and Gossip Girl says, “Jason Smith hits the Zeitgeist bullseye like few other writers. I’m going to devour everything with this guy’s name on it.”
JASON SMITH is a graduate of the University of California, Davis, whose work has been published extensively in both online and print media. Jason Smith is also the Creative Director of TheRealEdition.com, a recently launched website that allows addicts, recovering addicts, and their loved ones to publish their stories of addiction. Jason currently lives in northern California with his wife Megan and two children, Jaden and Isabella.
The Bitter Taste of Dying is released July 6th, 2015 by Thought Catalog and available in Kindle, iBooks, and hard copy on his website.
Jason Smith is available for interviews, contributions, and appearances. To schedule a media event, order books, or request review copies, please contact me at christawojo at gmail.com.
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Continue my discussion. Even if there is no abuse, just being a family member watching the drug taking and dependency is still upsetting.
Then on the other side of coin, I rather see a loved one take pills then to suffer in pain.
A double edged sword.
The thing that is frustrating is trying to help some one stop an addiction, many do not want help, they get angry, they do not want to discuss it or just tell you to mind your own business.
These people hurt their loves one as much as they hurt themselves. I feel bad for the people that have to live with them that are abused mentally and physically, the money spent, the hopelessness, the general unhappiness of all those involved.
Addiction is not a solitary problem, love ones are are effected.
I’m still an addict. It’s not fun.
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The power to say STOP and NO is the most difficult I guesss..but where there is a will, there is indeed a way!
Yes! And I think reading about others who finally did end it makes it a possibility for those still struggling.
That’s a great review.
Everybody who had any kind of dealings with the harm both prescription and street drugs (and alcohol) do, should shout about it. It’s the only weapon that most of us have, against this pandemic.
Agreed. Talking about it and getting it out in the open is the first step.
…in a long and difficult battle which is not helped by lack of funding from governments.
I tried to just quit smoking at least 100 times and failed. I can not even imagine how hard it would be to quit drugs.
Sounds like a fascinating, yet probably uncomfortable read. My Ex was a heroin addict. I think I should read this! Thanks for sharing x
It is very uncomfortable at some points, but it’s worth it. Everyone should be aware of the danger. It’s also just a very good book. At least we know there’s a happy ending.
I’m sorry to hear about your ex. That must have been difficult. I hope he recovered.
He did. Eventually. But he lost our daughter in the process.
Thank you x
I fear for someone I know who uses a lot of prescription drugs. So far as I know, it’s all according to doctor’s directions, but it’s such a worrisome cocktail of painkillers, muscle relaxers, and sleeping aids to be taken constantly. I wouldn’t want to insist that anyone live in chronic pain, but the swinging between high points that can be manic and the lows of terrible withdrawals doesn’t seem good either.
No, it’s terrible. I have a family member with fibro and chronic pain and I think the drug cocktails have permanently imbalanced her brain. There’s no way to take those drugs for decades without serious damage. I would keep a close eye on your friend.